Pride

QUESTION I know it’s trivial, but I am not sure how to begin… I was about to send you something a few times… but I was never able to find the right words. Words are getting somehow insignificant, inessential. Thank you for your understanding. Same goes to the initiation results. I would say my routine life hasn’t changed a lot, but it is completely my fault… But sometimes I have a feeling, more of a sensation (I don’t know how to call it otherwise) of something significant, consistent, something indifferent to everyday fuss. 
I felt that especially h3ly on Monday, after that meeting with you…
I was just working and all of a sudden I realized I was ‘looking’ at things differently, as if from deep inside of me; some kind of ‘inner silence’ came: no thoughts, no words. I know I am using someone else’s words, but I couldn’t describe that sensation better myself. Then I lost it, came back to my thoughts, etc. Most likely my egoism and ‘idleness’ are distracting me. 
Thank you for being there for me. I stopped dreaming of magic after I met you – I have found it… 
Wish you to be in peace.
ANSWER OF TAYANA Beautiful words are often wrong. All attempts to ‘shape’ feelings into words are in vain. Your words differ from what you really do, and this is what matters. Useless inferences are shallow and are indeed egoistic. 

A person under 21 years old should be intellectually developing, accumulating information and knowledge. It is a most blessed time. Having gained a proper qualification in this, you can start investigating the problem of magic. You have a chance to encounter miracles at the edge of this transition. You were delicately introduced to the fact that when two people have different spiritual development levels, they have the different present. Each person has his or her own vision of the reality. I do not recommend you to be flattered by what you see. What happened is that you saw a lightning flash but you failed to see your path. You have not defined your direction. You were unable to apply the energy that you received during a short meeting to activate your consciousness. It was then spent on shallow selfish things. It blinded you instead. Pride has declared itself; arrogance has gone beyond any reasonable boundaries. And this is what activates ignorance. You have limited yourself within a two-dimensional space. 

But all great things are simple in their nature. Their distinctive property is omnipresence, including simultaneous presence in all dimensions. Some glimpses of the Divine energy and spontaneous intuition manifestation are possible, indeed; chaotic mind movement can stop for some time. Receiving some pleasure you will be eager to experience it over and over again. You will not create any miracles, but you can possibly lose orientation in space for a long time. Vanity and illusion of self-importance can become masters of your personality.

A boy has fallen asleep at the edge of a deep well. Fate was passing by, woke him up and said quietly:
– Wake up, look at the danger threatening you. I have saved your life. But be careful in future. If you had fallen into the well, you would have said: ‘This is all due to Fate, its fault.’ But I have nothing to do with this. Your negligence is to blame. 

If you think that this is it, you are mistaken. You will find yourself in similar situations again. And if you show disrespect, ignorance and pride towards higher energies, you will be subject to various real-life conflicts. And the reason for all that – your attachment to your own limitations. This is what is happening now. 

Some shallow temporal ideas can be your highest ideals. No doubt you have the right of choice. But is it something that you really want? Do not try to hide from your life flow – be careful not to turn it into a muddy swamp. Turgid words won’t help the situation. Train your will. Strengthen your personality. Will is omnipotent. It will help you to avoid your mistakes caused by weakness. Weakness is rooted in ignorance. Do not lose the spark, seek the Light. Let the element of Wind help you.