Tag: Воля

Pride

QUESTION I know it’s trivial, but I am not sure how to begin… I was about to send you something a few times… but I was never able to find the right words. Words are getting somehow insignificant, inessential. Thank you for your understanding. Same goes to the initiation results. I would say my routine life hasn’t changed a lot, but it is completely my fault… But sometimes I have a feeling, more of a sensation (I don’t know how to call it otherwise) of something significant, consistent, something indifferent to everyday fuss. 
I felt that especially h3ly on Monday, after that meeting with you…
I was just working and all of a sudden I realized I was ‘looking’ at things differently, as if fro…

Illusion of perception

QUESTION Hello! I had a problem! I feel, that I can not (and without help and I will not be able) to realize myself! Many people say that I have great potential. And it is true, I can do many things, I open in myself new abilities easily and without any efforts. But I feel need for greater. It seems to me, that I become like many other: atheist, cynic, pragmatist… I can not recollect, how it was, but I was always accompanied with sensation of magic and abilities to it. As if I was given force which I do not know how to use, and the need to open it is very big. And there is a sensation, that if I am not open it now, the soul “will become hardened” and the force will leave. I am 15 years; pe…