QUESTION It seems to me that I’m becoming involved in life more and more, complicating it and cannot stop. I read a lot, I am interested in psychology, mystics, etc. I am seeking myself rummaging about in my soul… I know theoretically that one must live here and now, be conscious of themselves and of environment at any moment, be conscious of their breathing, walking, eating…

ANSWER OF TAYANA But inside me is uncosy, I desperately want something. If only I could understand what exactly I want, a horrible period of feeling unwanted is lasting too long and everything seems to be all right. I have had a diploma with excellence, a job, everybody is fine. But I cannot understand what is wrong side and I do not know what to do and how. Somebody else’s experience remains somebody else’s. I feel totally tired of ignorance how to use my knowledge and skills, what to do and generally, what is it all for?…

Your personality is dying. Its formation and development took a lot of time and it took more than one life. The stage of self-perfection is drawing to an end, new period is coming. It is sad to part with achievements. The part gives confidence. The future frightens with uncertainly. You are tired of the war with yourself and your environment. Your personality was pleased by the achieved results being under the command of your analytical mind.

But the time has come with your soul touched your personality. Submission, not resistance is necessary. And you continue living with your mind. The amount of the looks read by you makes the situation worse and does not lead to understanding.

You need love. It is the next stage of your development. The relations “I-You”, not “I and somebody” must expose. It is not a duty and not family bonds that root in a social establishment, but your choice, actions and creative work in this process. Life demands novelty, experiences, acute perception. And in your life everything is artificial, the expression is not true-to-life.

Understanding that you achievements are in vain is what lead to the search of a possibility for serving when love takes its supreme form of a prayer. To understand it mentally is difficult. It will take time to broaden your consciousness and patience.

Rummaging about in your soul is not the possibility for self-cognition. Your brilliantly developed system of analysis and makes your either to high or too low self-esteem active. You put on different labels and wondering in this sphere can be endless. Mistakes are dangerous. It causes dissatisfaction with everything. Avoid negative estimations and squeamishness. Take it without any resistance of your mind. So the personality surrenders to the soul. Should it happen – you will feel joy and liberation.

Service is a peculiar level of realization. There is no self-interest, no wish to gain outstanding results and no gratitude for what has been done. Life itself becomes inspiration.

02 September 2004, Просмотров: 104